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| Tuesday, September 26, 2006 |
| Between the Vibes and the Wants |
I realise that it can never be as good as we wish...
That she aint coming back.....
That maybe she's waiting for me to get her back.......
That Love's a bytch!
That
come to think of it, happiness is something we design for the present, not postpone for the future.
Am loving Neo-Soul like Dammn! To be listened to after work, after a shower, and the tenje's set to deep bass, lights turned off such that the player's lights are the only source of lighting. Then tengeneza milk and put a lot of coffee and sugar. A suitable high is guaranteed.
Then pop these three Cd's, piga shuffle:
1. Music Soulchild - JUSLISEN
2. Floetry - FLOETIC
3. Sade -BEST OF SADE
Sample this.
Lyrics to Musiq Soulchild's Half Crazy.
I'll post some links when i get good ones
La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la
La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la
La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la
la la
Never thought that we would ever be more than friends
Now I'm all confused cause for you I have deeper feelings
We both thought it was cool to cross the line
And I was convinced it would be alright
Now things are strange, nothings the same
And really I just want my friend back
[chorus]
And my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone (oh can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on (holding on)
Said my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone (can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on (yeah)
I'd hate walk away from you as if this never existed
Cause when we kissed the moment after I looked at you different
Lately I gotta watch what I say
Cause you take things personally nowadays
You used to laugh now you get mad
Damn I just want my friend back
[Chorus]
oh oh oh oh oh yeah
What happened to the one I used to know (oh yeah yeah)
The one I used to laugh and joke with
The one I used to tell all my secrets
We used to chill and be down for whatever whenever together yeah
And my mind's gone half crazy (oh) cause I can't leave you alone (I'm going half crazy baby)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me (oh) holding on (over you)
Said my mind's gone half crazy (yeah) cause I can't leave you alone (and I just don't know)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on (said I just don't know what to do now)
we used to chill (yeah) we used to hang
we used to do we used to do some many things together (yeah)
yeah yeah yeah yeah
oh oh
yeah
oh oh oh
Small disclaimer: I love music, i like to sing along, but i can never in the life of me do it on stage, as some recent events showed me! |
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| Friday, September 01, 2006 |
| Between the Visions and the Work |
Is the YOU in my head!
Hi girl. It feels funny the way i miss you. I jua am a mjinga 4 most of my mails are forwards, most of my sms WERE (b4 i lost the phone) really a way to get you to respond to this weired person inside of me who seriously misses you.
I don't know when and how you will get this and why i write this, and thats why i write it. I can always deny later that i said it but now....... now i want to speak to you, i want to tell you so many things.
I just dunno why but i feel like i cant get you to talk to me any more. i miss the long talks and the long walks we used to have where we could say anything and everything to each other without fear of judgement or anything else. So forgive me if i seem to want to write till forever.
I have a lot of anger issues of which i cant tell anyone about and i cant write or SMS (si yahoo always deletes old IM after you read) you that's why i chose this. Now i want to stop. i want to stop because i have just read the stuff am writing.
I want to smile knowing that i have someone who shares the same smile with me. Am always smiling coz i still have a picture of you in my mind, the YOU i know: smiling coz i jua, i trust, i hope that wherever you are you're smiling. Talk to me some time, even if its"just to say hi". It means a whole lot to me.
I will not go out drinking or whoring to forget you, i will not simmer in the memories of me and you, i will not try to get you to talk to me again. I will not bother you at 1 am in the morning with booty calls, neither will i call you at 5am and declare my drunken, slurry love for you.
I will get up, deal with my issues, smile at every new day that rises and just be.
"Only time can tell how the clock ticks"
Life is made up of choices and the choices we make up our lives. You chose another path, i was left standing and no matter how hard i've tried to lead you back to my path, you fade away, in the distance: Now am forced to stand on my toes, to catch a glimpse of you before you disappear into the mountains.
Mountains
Mountains of life, of love and hate, of hope and despair.
Somewhere.
Where it would have been me and you.
Is just me
Is just you?
A wooden smile is what i wear, while i gather up the slivers lining the pit of my heart, as i go about seeking another light to dispell the fear, the loneliness, and chase away those dreams, and give me new ones, fantastic or horriffic.
Let me be me
Let me......... |
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